It is taking all of my strength to avoid typing a really nasty message to everyone. You have no idea how I am boiling inside.

I have no issues about you guys taking the trip. Nope not at all. The country will always be there, well if I at least decide to go before 2012 decides to take place which I obviously pray it doesn't.

It it the approach taken when I actually told the situation I am facing at home. So much for friends being understanding. I HATED the fact that I had to open a message telling me to take the next 2 days to think about it carefully. My question is this: HELLO! Which part of "situation at home is bad" did you not understand? OR wait? Were you thinking that I would actually stoop so low as to lie just because days before I mentioned that I do not want to go anywhere if the other 2 are present. I am not that dumb to use my family as an excuse.

Of all the people in the world, you.

AND, I know for the fact that if a friend was having problem, I would wait. I would ask if she is ok and not ask her to think carefully or say if money is an issue we can sort things out. May be it was said out of good will and I am over reacting but place yourself in my shoes and see it from my point of you. I mean, yea, I understand the excitement but what was all that talk about going as a group, a decade of friendship and being there for each other? Right, I saw all that in action alright.

Go for all I care, Honestly, I don't mind but before you give me that stupid speech again, think in your heart whether you really even mean it first. Then preach.

I do not need anyone to go anywhere with me. You guys do not owe me a favor. I am independent and I have people whom will give me a shoulder to cry on and a hand to actually pick me up.

Whatever, I have said this many times. I don't care cause all this is nothing new to me.

Once a sucker, always a sucker.