In a span of one week, I have been craving for:
Toggis chocolate( It is getting stronger day by day)
Prawn Briyani(yes, you read it right) with loads of curry!
Sushi!
A Huge glass of Ice Lemon tea!! (Been really long since I have had lemon tea!)
So many cravings just to soothe the PMS soul. It is tough being a woman :p. One month, would be symptoms of back aches and mood swings and the next,weird food cravings and in months to come, WHAT MORE WOULD IT BE???? haha..I have become a mobile food machine and guess what, as I am typing, I can feel a new crave surfacing..Oh oh!! Now, there is 1 more to add in, root beer float with fried calamaris from white dog cafe..ok, that is 2. I better shut up and go meditate under a banyan tree.
Currently crooning along to westlife. Ahh..memories of the yester years. haha..sound as if I am reminicing days from 50 years ago. :p
Alright! going back to my karoke session. Adieu!
OK, this entry is going to be about me praising my favourite features ( get a pail ready to throw up ;) ) I was in the toilet, washing my hands when I decided to sneak a quick glance at the mirror, something I hardly do because I don't really like looking at mirrors.I decided to do some self analysis( there is no one in the staff room you see, I am all alone today).
I started with my face. Hmm..my face is actually slightly ovalish and I do have a nice chin and my eyes look nice today, they seem happy? Yup, there is a shine to it. Ahhh, nice lips but a little to small. Lets smile for the mirror! Hmm..my bunny teeth, like it or hate it, I still cannot decide.
Lets move on to clothes. What were you thinking where you picked this set out!!?? Hmmph! Note to self: Never Ever depend on a 13 year old and 50 year old for your clothes selection. Everything looks good to them. (hehe).
Down to the jeans - there are no lessons today because it is PTM meeting and I am not needed to attend . Ok, where was I? yes, the jeans, fits well and OOh! I love my butt! perfect shape for a pair of jeans! Love it!
So many good qualtites then why am I so inferior? My size. The biggest flaw that overshadows the other attributes is my tummy. Which, I beleive some good amount of crunches and exercises can get it off. The question is how long more? Not that I have not tried! Never mind, the holidays are here which means more time in the evenings to burn it up! I guess it is not how long I take but the effort I put in? =) Plus, I have a bigger motivation now. Age 25. That is what am going to call my plan. Short and simple. :p
Done throwing up? =)
Oh man! I just received an sms that a meet up my take place soon and somehow, I am not excited. I do not know why. Just 2 weeks back, might mentor was asking me about my behaviour with friends( that is because, she claims that I am a little too quiet and she wanted to know was it because the people in the room were just too noisy or was I just too quiet - but anyway, I am a bit more open now :p ) Ok, got side tracked a little over there within the brackets, anywayz, she asked me was I more vocal with clique A or clique B, and my immediate response was B. No hesitation, no pause and I felt a little bad after that. hmmph! Why? because, somehow, I feel comfortable to be silly when with them. My opinions get heard and the inferiority does not surface. Nope, not at all. Ala, am not going to dwell furhter on this because even I myself am sick of reading this repeated stuff time and again. It is about time, I move on.
Iti s just that sometimes, I do not understand why the number of years together just cannot mean something. Like, you know, people whom I just met 5 years ago can some how bring out the best in me and thos whom I have known for almost a decade brings out the ugly? When I mean ugly, I mean, quiet, insecured and somehow unheard. Some what insignificant with not much questions asked. Haiz..shut up Divya!
Everything aside, I got to go farm visits today and it was sooooo cool!!!!!!!! It was part of the teachers' learning journey and it was so fun. My goodness, teahcers are really, kids actually! haha..even the fiercest of them all. Put them in a vegetable farm, use the phrase " shopping time" and chiong!! back to the bus and you would see plastic bags of farm produce! And their behaviours are so child like, you forget that they are adults too! Makes me wonder about my secondary and primary teachers. All those fierce faces actually have a kid behind them.
Got to vist the aeroponics farm, dragon fruit plant and some organic farm.These places are so close to malaysia that you can see their building infrastructure so clearly from across the sea! haha.. I am still recovering from the excitement of the trip. It was really good! No city traffic, just nature.So beautiful and un-singapore like.
In a way, I hope I can remain in this school even after I graduate from NIE. Am keeping my fingers crossed. haha..everyone is just so nice, I don't think I can bear to leave. haha. =)
Lastly, I am craving for toggis chocolates!! Yum Yum!! Blame it on Pre-menstrual syndrome. I just had one 2 days back and I am still craving for more! AHHhh! :p
It has been 6 years since I left secondary school. It was the celebrated end to the lazy early morning get-ups. Something most of us dread the most in our school days. But today, I realised, the early morning is actually the most interesting part of the whole day! Today, I decided to not listen to my mp3 as I covered the 10 minute walk to newton bus stop but the lack of sound blasting into my ears was not missed because...the birds were singing! Seriously, they were! It was so..melodious? I can't even think of a better word to describe it. It was so serene, I actually stopped in my track to listen.
It was like they were in a choir group taking turns to sing in different pitches. I t was like "cheep cheep cheep" in one end and in the other, it was "CHEEEEEEPPPP! CHEEEEPPP!!!!" "cheep CHEEEP cheeeppppppPPP" know what I mean?
Strange that I never really paid much attention to such a detail in the past month and even years! If you are an early riser and have yet to notice this, go listen!! It actually makes your day because I am actually not feeling sleepy at the moment because I feel happy and somewhat, (as weird as it sounds) feel that I have sort of connected with nature today and it somehow has a soothing, healing effect on me. Seriously! The cool breeze of the early morning, the silence (compared to what you hear in the rush hour period) and then in the midst of them all, the songs of the birds. =) I am already looking forward to waking up early tomorrow!
Mwahaha..was on my way up from buying lunch(by the way, school is over and I am stalling time till meeting starts) when an idea struck me. I have found a medium where I can promote my anti-racism a.k.a my colourist club. Hmm, I don't intend to disclose this idea publicy because the thought of having people question me is enough to make me want to close this browser.
Anywayz, it has something to do with a small little dream I have been harbouring inside me since secondary school. I think those of you who know me well can kind of guess what it is. It is something I was planning to do at the age of 25. So, while zooming through some random thoughts, this idea struck me. I can actually kill 2 bird with one stone! Achieve 2 goals with one attempt! Hmm, all I need to do now is get my butt moving and I guess I have enough motivation to spur me this time.
Everything does happen for a reason indeed. =)
Wish me good luck!
Yes! Finally I had my first successful lesson with..well, one kid. hahaha..but it is ok, I feel fulfiled for now considering all my near misses in the past weeks. Remember the boy whose background reminded me of myself? Yea, I got him today and I was beyond happy. Also because, I made him talk more than he usually does with the other teacher..Oops! hahaha..seriously, so fierce for what? hehe.. =) cool right? I was a bit naughty, I was supposed to do maths for an hour but end up only about 40minutes before my mouth got itchy and I had to start a conversation with him. He is so adorable!!! haha..oops! I am getting carried away, I am just happy my first lesson was with him. I hope by the time I leave, I would have made some difference in that tiny little being of his.
There is sort of a small release there if you know what I mean, maybe thats why I am put in this line? Lets wait and see what else is to come.
As cliche as this story may be, it was the first thing that popped into my head when I ended my first session. So yea, here goes:
Once a man was walking along a beach. The sun was shining and it was a beautiful day. Off in the distance he could see a person going back and forth between the surf's edge and and the beach. Back and forth this person went. As the man approached he could see that there were hundreds of starfish stranded on the sand as the result of the natural action of the tide.
The man was stuck by the the apparent futility of the task. There were far too many starfish. Many of them were sure to perish. As he approached the person continued the task of picking up starfish one by one and throwing them into the surf.
As he came up to the person he said, "You must be crazy. There are thousands of miles of beach covered with starfish. You can't possibly make a difference." The person looked at the man. He then stooped down and pick up one more starfish and threw it back into the ocean. He turned back to the man and said, "It sure made a difference to that one!"
YAWNNNnnnnnnnz!!! I am so freaking sleepy!!! haha..nahz, it is the same old routine everyday. I walk into school full of energy. Enter the staff room and the cool air from the aircon and its quiet humming starts to lull me to drwsiness and then I start to fidget in my seat for atleast 45 minutes before I actually settle down and start work.
I think I belong to the high muscle tone group. The group of people that will go mad if made to sit down for too long with no physical activities. I shall be patient. Thursday is nearing and I am excited because FINALLY I can start lessons. I am keeping my fingers crossed and hoping this time, nothing screws it up. It happened twice and I am so SO HOPING it won't have a third time. I will definitely storm into the principal's office and bawl my eyes out. hahaha..ok, that was a bit too exaggerating. :p hehe..but yea, I will scream and pull my hair at least. haha..
I think my colleagues must be thinking I am some hyper restless human. They are always giving me that confused-are-you-ok look when they see me pacing up and down, moving in and out before I finally retreat to my cubicle and start doing my work. But I guess they are already used to this routine of mine. I wonder how I survived my school days sitting in that chair for hours as lessons after lessons go by. Hmm? haha.Ok, it is back to work now. I have finally got my brain and body set to work mode.
Adieu! =)
Hey hey..ok am back from emo-ing and is now in a better mood. I had a good day with the little mischievious one and it did wonders to lift my mood up though at first I was a bit sulky because I was irritated I could not go meet up with Gani and rest. haha..had a big fight with the blob over it just before stepping out for tuition and believe it or not, I was so pissed off I actually cried. yea, I cried because I could not meet my friends. Told you something was wrong with me. I guess, I just wanted some silly time with friends to get my thoughts scattered for awhile. But it is ok! I got the same effect out of my family and I am sane for the time being. =) Ok, I actually forgot the purpose of this entry after typing so much. Oops! haha..never mind shall get back to it once it comes back. Till then, I am counting down to next saturday! "A friend is one who believes in you when you have ceased to believe in yourself." I don't know why, but this is the first time I actually miss them to this extent. haiz.haha
Boy, oh boy, what is going on with me? You tell me because i don't know. This feeling is the most different of all. Yuck vs Yay! Hmm.. Anywayz, just got myself a new hand phone. Nokia E 71. 1) because of the demise of my motorola and 2) well, sort of a 1st pay gift to myself though it was kind of pricey and beyond my my expected budget. But it is ok, it is only this once anyway so why not right? Not as if I am always spending my money on uncessary things. Last but not least, I discovered an irony. On my tab it says "make me happy" but am I? No. I am always putting others feelings before me. I don't want to make xxx misunderstand so I shall just give in, I don't want to hurt xyz feelings so once again, never mind, I shall just change my plans and give in. In a way I know it is my fault for forgetting but some how I really wanted to meet them badly yet you could not just switch the days this once? 
OOOOOhhhhh I so cannot wait for the day SWINES become extinct. Especially those swines that eat their own kind. Mwahahahahahahahahaha..ARGH! I Hate them! All racist people should just burn in hell. Seriously.
I always saw myself as a feminist,to stand up for women rights but now, I think more than women,people affected by racism should just fight all the way.There is no society for them. Bloody hell. I am going to start my own one called the ANTI- COLOURIST society. Why colourist? you may ask. Well, It is simple. What does racism mean? According to the Oxford English Dictionary, racism is a belief or ideology that all members of each racial group possess characteristics or abilities specific to that race, especially to distinguish it as being either superior or inferior to another racial group or racial groups. AND, I believe the charateristics mentioned also refers to colour. Fairer people are prettier than darker people, fair is best, dark is low class, ABC race is better than DEF race just because ABC is the majority race. My butt!
Anyway, to sum it up, COLOURIST(I made up that word by the way) means to be prejudiced against people not just for their race but because of their skin tone. I am serious ok, I hate people who make fun of people especially
1) Using a "foreign" language to bad mouth someone who doesn't understand (It happens alot in this country alright)
2) Covering their nose infront of another race just because they appear dark and unkempt after a hard days work(same comment as above) and there is alot more than that trust me.
3)Calling stupid names like APUNEINEI- Apunei nei YOUR stupid shit head lah! Parents never teach ah? Uneducated idiots.Hold high positions for what when don't even have basic EQ.
4) Last but not the least, making fun of people's colour. Friend or no friend, many have got hell from me when it comes to this. I don't mince my word at all no matter how mild and timid I look.
ARGH!! This place talks so much about raical harmony when in reality its just a colourful blanket spread out to cover all the dung hidden deep inside. All talk and no action. Paint such a nice picture about racial unity when they themselves are doing the opposite.
That day will come alright. One day soon.
Wow..It is already one month since I have started work! Time has so openly escaped the grips of my hands. Well, am kind of enjoying myself so far though there is that occasional Hmmm...Ahhhhh...OMMMMMM and not to forget my HUUUuuu XIIIiiiiii..(yea,I do use that healing tactic on meself =) )..The experience thus far would be something I would rather discuss face to face as it would make understanding and most importantly,expressing of emotions better.If you know what I mean. hehe..
All I have to say is "Welcome to the life of home>school>"project hours" >work>home." I am too drained to think and too tired to type any further so shall make it a short one today.Though I must say, look out for my post about my first day at the temperature taking station. I am waiting to have the pictures sent to me so that I can upload. haha..yellow ninjas on the loose! =) “Be like a duck. Calm on the surface, but always paddling like the dickens underneath.”
The price one pays for losing her temper and and causing damage to other people's posession: A BIG hole in the pocket. Argh!! I have not even got my pay credited into my account and I already have one list of "debts" to clear. Damn it!! ARGH!! And to add to it all? My stupid handphone had to crack and to make matters even worse, I had to throw the stupid hard disk onto the wall. Should have just banged my head instead. Atleast insuarance would have covered that. Damn Damn Double Shit Damn! I am so pissed I can fry an ostrich egg on my head now. Hmph! Huuu XIIIIIIiiiiiiiiii ! At least I know I better count to 10 before I let my body react before my head thinks. Haiz.. so upset with my action.I have to learn to control my temper before it gets out of hand.
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