Ok, after a long while, I am back with my nonsense. Guess what. Now, my mind is filled with the thoughts of death. No no, I am not going to end my life or anything. My life is just beginning.

Anyway, I blame it on the papers. To me, no news is really good news. Well, compared to opening the door ever morning only to face death on your door step. The news paper, I mean. What stares back at you at the front page each time you sneak a glance at it? A bomb blast, a fatal accident, plane crash, murder and worse still, something as silly as someone choking on her mushroom and dying. What is becoming of the world? Life is so fragile these days. Like a glass balancing on a beam, a quiet blow from a strong breeze and CRASH! It shatters to pieces and all the king's horses and all the kings men will never be able to put it together again.

I find myself studying passengers in trains, buses and customers in shops wondering each time about the life they they are leading now and about their past. Do they realise that each day is just a question mark?Everything is just so unpredictable. I get scared sometimes. Even a healthy person is not spared an early death. Jogging one moment and dead the next. What is going on?

Hmm..I guess I am just blabbering. I think too much sometimes. Too much for my own good cause they happen to be stupid thoughts. I am not a pessimist though. I worry for the dumbest things but will always make sure I dig hard to find the light at the end of that dark tunnel.

I don't know why I am having such funny thoughts lately. It is the news papers I tell you. Too much of bad news on them. When I do have my own home, I am definitely not going to subscribe for news papers. No way.I'd rather not know what is going on and be a frog in the well than to read nothing but unhappy things first thing in the morning. I must admit that I hardly read the papers these days. Except maybe for the URBAN section of the Friday's paper and at times, the comics session.Thats about. Somehow, I still manage to stay just as informed about other current affairs thanks to the news channels. A quick sneak peek at what is happening on CNN, CNA and thats it, no need to go further.I don't want to know who died of cancer or who got smashed by the mrt. Which country got bombed or who got murdered. Are they helping me in making my life any better? NO. They make me more miserable cause I start fretting over them. As silly as it may sound.(more like over dramatic eh?).

I think twice now before I stand anywhere near an open platform at times standing alittle far from the crowd fearing that I may get pushed down by accident. Oh man, I realise how silly this sounds as I type it out. haha..haiz.

Feel better rattling it all out now. Just needed to voice it out to someone who would not laugh at me for having such stupid thoughts. Wait a minute, I am talking to a computer! Oops! Well, atleast it doesn't argue with me or call me stupid.
Life is short and I must make sure I live each day to the fullest and die a happy and fulfiled person .

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8