You have not seen me nor have you heard from me.It would take awhile but just be patient with me.Till then, just remember, out of sight,out of mind.I wish I can just go on a magic carpet ride.On a fanatsy escape out of this world and into outer space where I can dance among the stars and sleep on the clouds and maybe, I may get the chance to meet the people I miss-They say that those we love and have passed on are now among the stars watching over us. I wish I could just be with her now.

Once again last night, I found myself missing her. A long hidden sense of lost once again dug out.What would my grandmother say if she knew I had quit school?Sitting like a redundant object at home with nothing to do and no motivation to kick me back up-just yet. I have been job hunting/School searching and finally landed one interview. Just ONE interview out of the countless applications I have put in. But it could be meant to be.The one application I sent sincerely, got me an interview so maybe, I may just get it. That job is mine.

Oh man, I really really miss her so much,I just feel like huddling into a corner and cry it out.It is going to be 3 years since she has passed away but yet,I cannot shake off the feeling that she is really gone, physically that is. The only person who truly knew me and my senstive spots and though irritated me at times with her constant nags, always succeeded in injecting all the confidence I needed. She made me who I am.

Haiz..okok I shall stop emo-ing now. Shall go swimming soon and get all these frustrations out.

I am not sad,infact I am quite happy.Well, I am happy when I am out of my house actually. But I shall not complain. I just feel a little lost-It isn't something new anyway.

I had a great time with Priscilla and Arun and it made me realise, I enjoy the company of young people more than those of my age.hehe..it must be cause of the childish trait I still carry inside me or it could be the aura of carefreeness that surrounds them plus they do not carry any pretense within them.I really had fun. So much so,I was so light hearted that did not mind spending my money on them.It brought me great satisfaction though I am a little tight for money.

Damn, I told myself no more emo-posts and I did it again. haha..soon it will all stop. =)

The 2 things I cannot live without(aside from the cliche family and friends): Money and Space(freedom) without either, I am like a fish out of water.