It has been awhile since I last logged in no thanks to my internet connection at home.Christmas came and christmas went.We are now a week away from welcoming 2009 in.Lets hope that this new year would bear happier times with less disasters both natural and well,human-made and that it would usher in more prosperity to make up for the harsh financial crisis we are slowly drowning in currently.Aside from preparing for the new year,quite a few things have been up. You will be amazed at the various "climate" changes I actually went through in just a span of 5 days! From anger, to sadness,tiny little crushes,happiness,doubt and yes, a little confusion.Ha! With me, there is always bount to be some self-made confusions to stir things up in my over active brain.Don't laugh but after meeting my friend on wednesday,I got myself into a little thinking.Indian guy or chinese guy.Which would I actually prefer? Before I go into the answer,let me give a brief explanation as to what triggered yet another debate in my head.We were saying our goodbyes at the platform at cityhall and as usual,told each other to behave and not flirt around.With that,we somehow came to the topic of a chinese guy from my father's church whom I thought was quite cute.He had the right height and built and good looks to match it.haha..okok, anyway, I then realised I have a thing for chinese guys.That church guy was definitely not the first.There was a neighbour and quite a few more from past encounters. Not that I have not liked any indian guys.There were quite a few of them too.But I realised one thing as I dwelled further into my thoughts.I am very shy with indians.Especially the guys.I discovered that when with chinese guys, I am more open and interactive than when I am placed into a group of indian guys and looks do not matter at all in this case. I tend to have a slight fear of indian guys and yes,the girls too. Hahaha..yea,stupid.Considering I am indian too. Maybe,just maybe,it could be because I learned chinese since young and have been exposed more to that race than my own kind? Possible. Because from start,indians,especially those girls from my schools always had some sort of issues with me.I never failed to escape their stares or snide remarks whenever they found out I could not speak a word of tamil but could speak chinese fluenty.Well, I think it is their fault for being too judgemental because aside from the language,I am a very typical indian girl. Ask my sisters or any of my family members and they would tell you just that. I love traditions and take pride in following them. Unlike some who shun their tradition to behave westernised but when they open their mouth, it just betrays them.Call me arrogant but I am stating a fact.Anyway, I actually prefer both the races. I like chinese guys because I find them more open minded and natural in their behaviour plus,I like the language.It is something I love speaking though shy at times if with the wrong person.So if I am with a chinese guy, I can atleast continue on with it as part of a conversation rather than lose touch of it.With an indian,I can keep my tradition and also coninue to share it with the person. I also love malayalam but it is one language I am still struggling with though I made a promise to myself to master it when I grow older.On the other hand,I dislike the Man is Boss theory popularly believed in the indian culture and the common thinking that a woman has to only be with her husband and have not much of a social life kind of crap thinking(anyway,that mind set is depleting slowly with this generation). haha..but I did mention to my friend that I intend to find an ang-monised indian. An ang-monised indian who inside him,prides his indian roots.You get the drift. =). Whatever the race,a decent character and all other predictable elements are required. ;) *I am not a racist.I am not a racist AND I am not a racist. I am proud to be an indian. This is for those are already thinking I am a *toot* to my own kind and is all ready to whack me up.“An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves."
Can someone define to me what a best friend is?While on my way home from tuition,I zoned out once again into my world of never ending thoughts and this time,I found myself mulling over this:How do we define best friends?How do you know this person is fit to be your best friend and not just a normal friend based on that few years you have known each other. I mean,why do we need a best friend in the first place? Shouldn't the clique we hang out with be close enough to share every feelings and thoughts we have? So why does that one person in the clique get that one extra title?The title of My Best Friend.Isn't it kind of interesting how somone you can know for 10 years is still somewhat of a stranger to you while the friend you have just met less than a decade ago can know you inside out and sense every mood change in you even though she is not right there beside you?How is that possible? Shouldn't time reveal all about a person?So why is it the decade long friend cannot seem to understand you just as well?I guess it just means that it is not always about how long you have known a person but how much you choose to reveal to that person.The number of years you have been together does not matter in this case.It is how comfortable you feel when you are around him or her.How much you want her to look deep inside you and the insecurities you carry with you.There have been many times where I have revealed my most vulnerable side to a friend of just 4 years when I have never shown such an insecured me to my own best friend and it makes me wonder why. Why? I mean best friend means you share eveything with that particular person right? Your goals,your dreams,your happiness and your fears. Everything that defines you. So why is that not possible?Other than confiding mostly about school worries and other minute details,I cannot seem to expose the other side of me just as easily as I have done to the friend of few years. Does that mean she is not fit to be my best friend? Somehow, I disagree with that thought because at the end of the day, she happens to be the only person I know who has yet to fight with me(touchwood) and has till today,never made me feel an inch of inferiority at all.Someone whom I can talk and at the same time listen to.Still, I can't seem to be as open as I am with the latter.I think it is the special bond we shared the moment we started talking in temasek poly.The unseen chemistry that just ignited something inside me to just go ahead and be an open book.To be myself-the girl with many insecurities from childhood,fears and yet have big dreams she wants to make come true. By the end of my 15 minute long bus ride,I figured that a best friend is just like a diary-You reveal what you are comfortable sharing and keep the rest locked inside you.It does not make that book any less special.
A friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be yourself.
Met up with Ke Xin for a scrumptious lunch at White Dog Cafe Vivo City and to also pass her the two week old birthday present...and of course,what is a meeting with no shopping! Sadly,except for a pair or earrings, nothing really appealed to us.Well,more like for me.Haha..the irony of it all.Damn,I thought I could get some good bargains!!
Calamari Rings are usually more flour than squid meat but this is filled with squid and is so yummy it keeps you wanting more! Just talking about it is making me hungry! The picture is not making things any easier.I can feel my salivary glands pumping up already!
But I tell you,the food there is good! We ordered the set lunch which consisted of a main dish,a soup and a choice between coffee or tea.I just realised I did not take a picture of my cheesy chicken with almond crust.What a waste! It tastes as good as it looks and ooh lala..the mushroom sauce that came with it? Yumm!!! I don't even want to start on the seafood baked rice.Just take a look at the picture because if I have to say any further I may just make myself more hungry...which for now I cannot afford to do so because, *burp* I am still kind of full from stuffing myself. =) I love food. Screw diets for now.Haha..we only live once! Ok, you will only hear me say this once in a blue moon but what the heck I meant it anyway. haha..aiya.
You may be able to catch a glimpse of some of the dishes in this pic taken by K.X.
Top left hand side: My Cheesy Chicken fillet with Almond Crust and rice. Just below it,the juicy calamaris and at the bottom right hand corner,the seafood baked rice.Looks deliciously good right!? =) And check out the view.Dreamy blue sky with a glimpse of the turquoise waters of the sea.Hmm..
All in all, I had a really good time. The 2 hour lunch,the walk around the shopping centre and clothes trying and the successful attempts in making each other get a pair of earrings and yea, chocolates from candy empire, my week cannot begin in a much better way.(I am aware it is already tuesday,but it is still beginning of the week.Haha..).
To sum it up, my remaining days this week is packed! Let me just give a short run through. hehe..
Wednesday: Tuition. Ok, that is just in the noon.
Thursday: Accompany appupa for his eye appointment and tuition later in the evening.
Friday:Accompany Priya for school registration.( I so hope she gets SMSS)
Saturday: Once again, tuition! (note to self: never miss lessons again =) ).
Sunday: Last touches of house cleaning in preparation for 2009!
Thats all folks!.
Before I end off,take a look at my earrings. =)
All wrong-doing arises because of mind. If mind is transformed can wrong-doing remain?
I have finally done it! Submitted the application today after getting Prem Maman to verify the certs as true copies.I some what feel alittle confident about the whole thing.Maybe it is because of the positive aura in the office and somehow,the pictures and statues of Ganesha placed in his room had its calming effect on me.
I want this application to be successful although I know it is not the only way to achieve my goal.
Once again,I shall keep a positive attitude and just pray for an outcome that is for the best of me.
Whatever the result,so be it. Life goes on.
Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.
The form has been filled and signed.All that is left is getting the certs certified as true copies but that is just a small matter.My uncle has agreed to do it for me free of charge :p .My fingers are crossed tightly with the hope of a positive reply.I know I want it and this time,it is soley for me and not for the satisfaction of anyone else.I have to admit I am feeling abit paranoid.There are so many out there with results and CCA records a ton times better than what I have to show.So what will make me stand out from them? I have no idea.All I can do now is pray and hope and just be confident.Should I fail to get it,I shall just proceed to plan B. It is not the end of the world.Right? haha.Keeping my fingers crossed.“Be the change you want to see in the world.”
Good news good news!! Well, for me lah! I am finally,FINALLY getting my own bed!After sharing bed for almost all of my 21 years of existance,my father has finally realised his over grown kid needs her own bed! =) Yea! As of thursday onwards,I am going solo.Hehe..Just cannot seem to stop smiling at the thought of it.Till thursday,I shall just bear with all the orchestral music and kung-fu kicks.Just 2 short days away.A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor's book. ~Irish Proverb
The movie for The bored souls.One of my all time favourites that never fail to get me all pumped up whenever boredom floods me. =). I discovered today that I am an adrenaline junkie.Well,not in an atheletic,sporty kind of way but in terms of movie genres.As I was browsing through the list of movies online,I realised it was not the comedies or chick-flicks that got my attention but the action packed thrillers or street racing ones that kept me clicking for more.
They usually say it is watching a good comedy that lifts one's spirits but not for me.It is the speed,guns and "kung-fus" that gets the blood pumping and the mood lifting.Oh! and did I mention the cute guys that complete the whole package?hehe..I mean,aside from all the thrills and spills,what is an action movie without a hunky actor right? haha..Oops!hmm..Brad Pitt,Keanu Reeves,Michael Keaton,Val Kimer,Steven Segal,Nicholas cage!..the list can go on but one thing is for sure,no one can pack a good punch like them.(actually,I can't really remember most of the newer actors' names.haha..but they are still the best).OOh..but Paul Walker is cute! Ahh..dreamy eyes and cute smile.Which brings me to one last thing.
While watching Fast and the furious,I found myself checking out every shoe P.W wore and I discovered yet another thing,I like guys who wear converse shoes! Hahahaha..ok that was lame but too bad!It is true! Because in reality,on the first encounter,aside from the physical appearance, I do like checking out the types of shoes the guy in particular is wearing and if it turned out to be a converse,I find myself "analysing"further. ;)
I should go get a boyfriend who loves converse as much as I do then we can both go on frequent converse sprees.hehe..and the bags! We can even share them!hehe..
I can sure count on a good night's sleep tonight. ;)"Do not wish to be anything but what you are, and try to be that perfectly."~ St. Francis De Sales ~
I honestly want to go on a holiday.Anybody want to sponsor tickets?Haha..christmas is coming!Tis' the season to be giving! So why not to your sweet little friend/cousin/sister/human being? hehe..All I want for christmas is a pair of tickets to honolulu or maybe plain old langkawi with its beautiful beaches would do just fine. Somewhere serene and close to nature.Have I ever mentioned how I hate technology and intend to move to the swiss alps one day? Yea, I am so going to do just that once I have earned enough money and retire.Go live with mountain goats and milk cows everyday.haha! I need a break seriously.Before I go nuts any further.
“Christmas gift suggestions:To your enemy, forgiveness.To an opponent, tolerance.To a friend, your heart. To a customer, service. To all, charity.To yourself, respect.”And for me, tickets to langkawi! ;) hehe,, =)
I would never do anything to harm my family.And when I mean family,it isn't just my parents and siblings.I mean the whole clan of us.We are after all, from the same family tree. So why all these hatred and false accusations? We weren't like this when we were younger were we? When we used to gang up and fight with each other,bully and play pranks.Then why the sudden turn in weather?I am stumped.It is just so weird.All these things that are going on.I am clueless but definitely not blind to not notice something is up. I just want it to all end.It is seriously not worth it.Why would anyone want to harm their own kind?Even animals don't do it then why are we as humans with feelings and emotions doing it?Lets just stop it shall we?Sit down and talk it all out and as one family solve all the misunderstandings among us?We are family.Forgiving and forgetting is part of the whole package. I hope we can start afresh.If not for us, atleast for the old man who is helplessly watching it all happen infront of him. I am just hoping for a miracle to happen.Maybe an angel will come down from heaven and throw some sparkling dust and voila! All the nightmares are over.If only it was as easy as that. To wish upon a shooting star. Other things may change us, but we start and end with the family. One last thing.I need chocolates!! hahaha..give me a box full of chocolates! yummy! Sweets for the disturbed souls =) .
Been awhile since I blogged eh? haha..blame it on my wireless network.Or should I say the almost gone modem. Anyway, ALOT has been going on lately.Good things,Bad things and yea,damn bloody ugly things. I am disgusted beyond words but guess what?I believe in the BIG guy up there and when time is ripe,he will settle everything and put all the evil humans in their places.When that happens,you can count on me, she and her to sit in a corner and laugh our pants off at all of you. Wait and see because it is true when they say those who laugh last has the best laugh. Oh! and for your information, the bitxh in me has awaken.Yes,you won't want to mess with this side of me. You and them are crossing your limits once again.Don't think just because I am keeping quiet means you guys can climb on her head and treat her like dirt.Shout at her as if she has no one to stand up for her.I am no small fry.Don't you for one moment think she has no one to stand up for her.You want to play witch craft on me? I will play the meanest Bi*ch you will ever see. So, back off before it is too late. Or you will regret it. Ok Ok,I know I have been typing nothing but angry or depressing entries. Give me some time to settle my ever chaotic mind and come back in a better mood and with a bang. =).Just have to pull out some thorns from my flesh and then all will be well and good. I have to say I have reached a stage where no one can be trusted anymore.No one at all. Planning to join a meditation class. Sourcing out for a place that is relatively cheap or if better, free! hehe.I need mental peace! and also,to learn not to get myself worked over every shit thrown at me or anyone close to me. Its time I take the back seat and let my subordinate take over for awhile. ;) haha..haiz..never mind time will tell what happens next. Till then, Peace out! Adieu! Happiness keeps you Sweet, Trials keep you Strong, Sorrow keeps you Human, Failure keeps you humble and Success keeps you glowing, but only Faith & Attitude Keeps you going
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