It was only after meeting her yesterday did I realise I actually do miss her alot.As much as I go around telling people I cannot be bothered about her since she has been missing in action for so long,I realised it was because I missed her alot and was just finding excuses to push her out o my mind.The only friend who would look me in the eye and tell me I suck when I do suck as a friend and at the same time tell me I was one of the bestest friend anyone could find without a bat of the eyelid.


Our friendship was an unexpected one.We started of disliking each other.Well,more like I disliked her as she was the class's cry baby and "xiao qi".It was only when I saw her crying in the dark outside the class in secondary 2 one early morning did everything change.She had alot going in her life at that time and being the softie I was,I lent her a listening ear.That day on,we became friends.However,we became closer only when we were in secondary 3 when both of us were separated from our clique and placed into a new class.One we detested at first.


While people stepped away when I got into one of my foul moods,she would be the only one who would step in and hear me out and when she thinks is necessary,give me a good shake and a knock on my head.Well,literally.=) Likewise for her,I would do the same.I guess that was what kept us close.We understood the reason behind each other's quick temper.

To cut the long story short,I just miss her loads.Her hugs especially.(I used to hate it when she came to give me hugs because back then,hugs,to me, were for sissy girls and also,it showed vulnerability..hehe..Oops!)Somehow,she could just sense the moments when I needed someone by my side and she would just sit beside me and keep quiet for as long as it took for me to cool down and all of a sudden,a BIG hug would come and I would squirm my way out and screech"EEEwwww!!!"haha..haiz..I would welcome those hugs anytime now.

Oh! and did I mention the letters?Haha..I know I sound as if we were in a BGR relationship but obviously...NO lah! Anywayz,she was funny.In the sense that whenever we had holidays,she would surprise me with letters! Haha..I remember how she once wrote a letter fully in chinese just for a change from the usual medium of communication we always used.We would exchange letters be it a one week term break or the one month mid term/year end break.We just enjoyed it.Till recently,she had been sending me letters,till she began night shift =(.

I guess I should stop being a pig and just accept the fact that she is really busy.She has alot of responisbility in her hands and I am sure somewhere in that busy mind of hers I will be in it.I guess,I shall just go surprise her with a letter this time..for a change. =)

"A true friend is someone who knows there's something wrong even when you have the biggest smile on your face."