I am so ashamed/embarrassed/disgusted/hurt,I wish the floor beneath me could just open up and swallow me into a dark abyss so that I never have to come back and face what I just did.I am very disappointed at myself for denying so openly to the "mistake" I commited.That too to my own father.The irony of life.One moment I was over the top with pure joy and laughter and the next,I am back down to ground zero.
Why oh why!! Couldn't I just admit it then and there?

1)It did not struck me at that point coz I was too stunned by how I was the first person to be accused.This isn't the 1st time I am the first to be blamed.It really hurts even when I know I am guilty.But I know inside me,I did not do it just for me.Its ok.There is sunshine after every rain.

I can only think of one point now.It is enough to summarise my whole jumbled knots of emotions.

Well,one thing is for sure,I loathe the fact that I have been compared to the one person I so hate being compared too when it comes to lies and cheating.I didn't know I was that despicable.Or am I? I don't know.Maybe because I have never thought that someone could actually see me in such a light.I must have been really disillusioned all these while.

My pride is broken.It was broken the moment YOU compared me with HER.Damn it! I hate it when people do that.Well,you are not the first.Someone has compared me in a similar way before you.So I shall just add what you said to my list of condemned and one day,when I am ready to finally let go of all the grudges and hatred I have inside me,I will burn it to ashes and just let it go.Yup,I will.

Introducing the new and improved divya.=)

Just smile and let it go because he who angers you conquers you.

Learning to take life with a slack-o attitude.

I feel better now.

Adieu and good night!