This entry is just to sort my toughts out.So expect jumbled thoughts and nonsense talk.


1)I am in a dazed-high on the clouds mood.Feeling all warm and fuzzy inside yet I do not know why or what it is.

2)I want to step out of my comfort zone.Interact,get myself comfortable with crowds and most importantly,keep the eye contacts.Especially with the species of the opposite sex.

3)I want to tell people off when I think they deserve to and not keep it all inside with that stupid smile on my face.There are 2 sides of a coin,why not 2 sides of me right?

4)I want night walks in the beach with the soft crash of the waves being the music to my ears and the glittering stars, the diamonds in my eyes.

5)I wish I could bungee jump off a tall building and scream out all my fustrations to my heart's content.

6)I want to scuba dive one day and play with dolphins.

7)I want to own a dozen animals in my future home.

8)Strangely,I do not want to be a power woman anymore.I just want a quiet laid back life with animals,nature and children around.

9)The hours required of an IT personnel does not seem appealing at all.They put me off.I do not want to clock in at weird hours and be at the back and call of people in the VERY near future to come.(I fear this even more after hearing about deepti chechi and anish annan's experience.)

10)I just want a simple yet happy life.I want peace.It is priceless.

11)What do I want to do?Is this degree my dream?

12)I realise I have a soft corner for activities involving children.I want to teach OR is it another confused phase for me?

13)I may not have mentioned this before but I have a tiny little wish to train dolphins and hope to do so if I go to australia or maybe just plain old bintan one fine day.

14) I want to be with animals.I want many many animals at home.Dogs,rabbits,love birds.On the not-so domestic side,I wish I could keep deers and elephants!They can all wander around freely in my huge back yard.No chains no cages.Just love, care and trust.

15)I want people to stop mocking my father.See him as someone who is responsible and stood all the way with us and not just dumped us when my mother wasn't around for that one and a half years.

16)I want to give my father what he has lost all these years.Peace and Joy.A family with not 1 BUT 3 successful daughters who will make him proud.So proud that all those that laughed and mocked him will now look at him with envy and eat all their dirty mockeries back.

17)I want to find myself.

18)I want to travel,back pack to countries not as established as Singapore to do some soul searching.It is through the eyes of the less fortunate do we see our luxuries.

19)I want to be free of grudges,hatred,insecurity.I want to be clean inside.To be just free and not chained to emotional garbage.

22) I want to have an animal reserve.Especially for the elephants and dolphins.I want to go on missions to rescuse them.Save them from idiotic fools of the hunters.

23)I want to buy back #17-119

24)I want THAT apartment in novena.

25)I want to conquer all the listed WANTS above.

Just to end of with my favourite bible verse since Primary School.

"GOD is love." and then when I was in secondary school,I chanced upon the full verse.

"Those who love not,know not GOD for GOD is love."

Adieu!

I feel uncluttered now.But the list can just go on and on.... ;).