That is what is in my head now.Thoughts.Full of it.Good thoughts,bad thoughts,all in a state of chaos.Help!haha..I just realised something,I have been successfully blogging for one month!So unlike me..but I realised one thing along with this.I enjoy my blogging only because I can vent everything out without any interupption.yup,I realised that.Its a place where I can freely express whatever thoughts without having to feel conscious at all cause you know why?The blog can't talk back nor can it give me a deadpan expression or a there-she-goes-again look on its face.It just stares back at me as I fill it with words.

Dear GOD, I pray for someone who will give me his/her ears for me to just talk away freely. Someone whom I can feel really really comfortable to just go on and on with. I really want a friend like that.(Yeah I have 2 sisters at home,but sometimes you just need a spare one)I am so tired of being a listener.I dont blame anyone but myself cause of my lack of ability to voice out my feelings or thoughts.I think I just need the right person to be 100% myself with.

Why is it everytime I talk,I will definitely get cut off half way or sometimes people just ramble on and on until they finally realise I exist and for the sake of it all just ask me a few questions and after that?It is back to them again.My mother included. I have made a tiny scheme for myself.It is called the I-listen-according-to-how-much-u-listen-to-me scheme.In which for the amount of time the person actually listens to me,I will return that same amount of time to the person when he/she is talking.After which,my mind will go to hibernation mode.Lame.I know.I MAY just do that the next time.Listen and I listen else go fly a kite.

p.s This is part 1 of my 2 months character make over.

Adieu!