By letting go,things wouldn't be so bad.The paranoia would not spread like cancer.I guess they are growing and I should understand and give them their space and stop budging in every single time.I find myself an irritant to them sometimes,nagging so much and at times get irritated at the slightest thing they do.I really have to let go.As difficult as it is,I want to and need to.I find this fear increasing day by day.I can seriously lose 10 friends at one go but not 1 of my sisters.

I really really pray that I can be better.I feel as if I am actually starting to go mad.Yes,don't laugh.My sisters mean alot to me and thus when the thought of losing them arises,I get all paranoid and start fussing around.I realise if I continue this way,they may just slowly move away from me thinking I am just invading their space.

I am sorry if I jump at the slightest thing the 2 of you do.It is only today I realised how irritating I can be when I always jump at you two saying that the two of you think I am not good enough,or not as smart.well,you know what I mean.But the 2 of you are the best pair of sisters one can ever ask for.Just give me time.