I wonder when my blogging interest will wear off..I am surprised I have been actually blogging somewhat regularly..too bored I guess. haha..lets see what happens when I get back to school. haha..well, the purpose of this entry is well, just random. Somethings have been wandering through my head recently. Like, ok..how does one know when u really like a person and its about time..?
Firstly, how does it all start? From the physical appearance right? I mean isn't that the first we set our eyes on?

The first place that make us go "ooh..he is so my type"..(Ok thats how it works for me atleast) So after that what? how do you asess the character? Like what kind of a person he is?(That is if you see the person on a regular basis. i.e. in school, etc)..careful observations may give you a rough idea to what his/her character is like but still? I mean if you think you want to actually know the person what is it you have to do? you can't possibly go up and say "Hey! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx..I would like to get to know you" It doesn't work that way for me..I mean..isn't it embarrasing?

I know am starting to sound like a cracko..but I have always wanted to know how does it all start. Like what does it take to actually like someone. Isn't it from the looks? The first thing that draws your attention to the person of the opposite sex then from there its all a question mark..haha..a head full of ???????????????????????????? floating all over can make one go mad.
Ok, I have to admit I have like quite a few guys..some were really stupid and childish when I actually think back but then again, there were some I do feel that sense of seriousness towards it. As dumb as it sounds, I do wish sometimes I opened my mouth when I had the oppurtunity back in secondary school. Maybe i was too young..but hey..its been 7 years and that guy is still in my thoughts..unlike the other "cute" guys I have OOhhed and ahhhed over..he wasn't just all looks you know..there was that something in him. That something which over the years I have not felt on anyone I have so called claimed to like. Well, nature as its own sense of humour I guess. haha..and if I was not hallucinating at that moment, I can still see the whole scene of that smile I received when I was sitting like a real kok with my books filled yellow plastic carrier, hugging as I sat clumsily on the bus seat.

I can still remember how,from the corner of my eye, I thought he was a bangladeshi worker and kept cursing under my breath till I got of the bus and Michelle excitedly screeched "Did you see it!" "Did you see that guy looking and smiling at you? through out the journey?". At that time I thought she was mad till I saw who it was the next day..then again that is a whole short story of its own. When i think back, sometimes, the pessimistic side of me will say don't be mad..it could all be coz of how dumb you must have looked at that time..and then optimistic part will budge in and go Hey man..you never know..there were other times to yea? Well, again..they are all a story of their own.

If only..haha..if only ..IF ONLY I had the courage and was not so self conscious..haiz..but damn..there is a soft corner there for him..I maybe fooling myself or maybe just being dumb..but I dont care..each has their own special someone and it doesnt mean you have to know the whole historical details of the person to be able to have a special liking for him/her..I guess in each..there lies that something special which only your own eyes can see. (eew..its so mushy argh!). well, I guess he had it.. wasted 2 years- wonder where he is and what is he up to.

One fine day.

Adieu!

p.s He does have one of the nicest pair of eyes I have ever set mine on.